The worst test performance ever!!!

 I was walking towards my History teacher to hand in the answer sheet when I quickly scanned through my friends' answers that was lying in front of me. I was hoping that I can at least have most of the answers right with others  to feel more secure before giving in my paper to the teacher. To my dismay, I never had thought that my answers would be completely different from the rest of them. I couldn't change my answers even if I wanted to because the teacher was right there looking at me. My optimism deteriorated when I looked through my book to check whether the answers are right or not but they turned out to be a total opposite. Also, I never have thought that the carried mark would be 20%. It was a heart break to me when I realized that each question carries exactly 1 mark each, no less and no more than that. As I am feeling troubled and remorseful for the time I have not spent wisely, I am now writing down my feelings residing in me. Feeling hurt for not being able to score high this time and guilty as i did not revise much for the test. I have indirectly let both of my parents down for I did not study as hard as I was supposed to. Instead, I have been  ruminating about my own problems every day and every time, where I ended up ignoring my studies and not appreciating the time that I have. It has been 4 months since the incident happened and it has always troubled me as the incident would swirled in my head , making me feel down-hearted and anxious whenever I think about it. In fact what really bothers me now is that whether I can make it to the university I have always wanted to study at for my degree. Considering my results from previous small tests, I have very little chance of scoring high for the overall CGPA.... There's no turning back now but I deeply wish that miracles could happen to change things for the better.

New obstacles to Overcome

Pursuing studies in tertiary education challenges me to stay outside  in the world where parents will neither be by my side nor looking after me. Many ups and downs I have experienced as I study through my foundation course; academic performance, entrance into uni for degree, peer pressure and last but not least, confidence towards myself... I am on the verge finishing my course pretty soon and so, I hope that I will enjoy every single moment of my time here as a learner.