I was walking towards my History teacher to hand in the answer sheet when I quickly scanned through my friends' answers that was lying in front of me. I was hoping that I can at least have most of the answers right with others to feel more secure before giving in my paper to the teacher. To my dismay, I never had thought that my answers would be completely different from the rest of them. I couldn't change my answers even if I wanted to because the teacher was right there looking at me. My optimism deteriorated when I looked through my book to check whether the answers are right or not but they turned out to be a total opposite. Also, I never have thought that the carried mark would be 20%. It was a heart break to me when I realized that each question carries exactly 1 mark each, no less and no more than that. As I am feeling troubled and remorseful for the time I have not spent wisely, I am now writing down my feelings residing in me. Feeling hurt for not being able to score high this time and guilty as i did not revise much for the test. I have indirectly let both of my parents down for I did not study as hard as I was supposed to. Instead, I have been ruminating about my own problems every day and every time, where I ended up ignoring my studies and not appreciating the time that I have. It has been 4 months since the incident happened and it has always troubled me as the incident would swirled in my head , making me feel down-hearted and anxious whenever I think about it. In fact what really bothers me now is that whether I can make it to the university I have always wanted to study at for my degree. Considering my results from previous small tests, I have very little chance of scoring high for the overall CGPA.... There's no turning back now but I deeply wish that miracles could happen to change things for the better.
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