The Best Day Of the Year

I was woken up by the messages ring tone this morning. As I looked through to see who was texting me, I finally realized that I was supposed to celebrate my birthday today. I was so excited when the first thought to my mind was whether there's anyone who would wish me a Happy Birthday...Just a few words of birthday greetings in facebook makes me happy because it is nice to know that we can share good times together.

Going out and having a long conversation with a long time friend while strolling in the shopping mall was fun and pleasant. It is relieving when we can know each other issues and just to be a supporting side to whatever is going on.

For the special gifts you have given me, I'll be sure to keep them safely forever in mind and somewhere that would be clearly visible. Though it wasn't an extravagant birthday event, what matters most is the time we enjoy together and so I hope that we will be able to do the same for the ones we love and care.

The cake that my mum and dad ordered was amazingly beautiful but somehow, it does taste kinda strange...Hehehehe..I'm too happy beyond words so I hope you will have yours too in times to come.

Fruit cake...that what it is. Here is the picture and I must say that this is the best decorated cake.

MY BIRTHDAY CAKE FROM FAMILY

At a distance, this is how it looks like.

Tentative Feelings

I may look bright and cheerful on the outside, but in my heart, lie the feelings of emotional pain, sensitivity and timidity. You must be tired hearing this over and over again but why can't I learn my lesson...I feel like I'm the most rebellious and idiotic among many others.

Let me be renewed and forgive my past sins...I'm sorry for misusing my time and the healthy mind and body that you have blessed me with. Allow me to make changes to myself and I hope I will be a great follower of your kingdom.

To those reading my blog, I'm sorry if I have deceived you. I told you I would change for the better but since to me that I have not made any...It's difficult when I have to give up the fun and the things I wish to do. However, I would still prefer the peace and healthy living of my life instead of fulfilling my worldly desire.

There're plenty of things I wish to do....Read the gospel of God and immersed myself in the beauty of the world God has created. I would to also establish myself securely as a bright and outstanding student of my college. Whatever I did in the past, let me go quietly and I hope I can replace and compensate with the efforts of the presence. 

Making a scrap book, playing piano, learning Mandarin and Korean ( my priority is still English though), working a part time job and acquiring world knowledge; health, sciences, IT, environment, business, arts, humanity and many more that connects everything to the universe. I'm still here so I hope I would be set free from my suffering and I hope that I would be given another chance to pursue my dream. Please strengthen me so that I will not take my life for granted.

BE POSITIVE!!! I CAN DO IT!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!   :)

A Sorrowful Predicament

Which path should I take? Will I be able to achieve my dream of studying medicine in the future....What have I done to myself? 

There's no way out now. Gotta take the safer path first before venturing into the hopes of my dream. Maybe I should try physiotherapy first and let myself to enjoy whatever there is with me at the moment. Be with me at the same time....I'm lonely.

Strengthen me and I thank you Lord for bearing me with me until  now. I love you and I wish to love more for it is the gift that you have bestowed upon me. I wish for the happiness of my friends, family and those who I have met along the journey.

Will I be able to go through another day, I wonder. Hear me out and free me from the bondage of sadness and loss of direction. Amen.

Thoughts of the Day

You create the chance, so don't be dismay with mistakes but give yourself another chance to correct them.

Studies isn't everything but it is one of the important things in everything.

Look up and all will be fine as long as you're still here to do wonders.

In little things we do, there's happiness and sparks of achievement.

Love everything,eg. family, parents, friends, representatives, knowledge  even your enemies and all will flow smoothly.

Do not ruminate over problems but let each problem be the source of improvement and change to a better person.

Among all, love and worship God. He is everything above everything.

Positive RULES....and negatives rekindles for us to notice what's needed to be change.

An Incredible and Splendid Day Indeed......

It's a surprise to have my birthday celebrated with my close friends. What's more is that I'm so touched by how people would set up such a lovely plan to celebrate and have fun with their beloved ones. To be honest, I never did thought that I would be having a small advanced birthday celebration with friends after a while...

At first, I thought that I was to hang out with my friend's elder sister whom has certain issues to discuss about. It turns out that I was mistaken as she was just going accordingly to the plan of bringing me along to the restaurant in the vicinity of a shopping mall. I was already at my seat comfortably when another friend of mine approached me from behind and led me to where we are suppose to be sitting.

Feeling puzzled, I just follow the flow when I was bewildered to see a round chocolate cake decorated with fruits and  chocolates chips on the cake itself. Never would I have thought this has been set up in the first place. I was also shocked to have met with another close of mine whom I have thought to be in Kedah studying medicine.

Enough of having personal problems and upsetting news to deal with, I'm utterly grateful for these lovely friends who has taken the initiative to celebrate birthday with me. I'm writing this down as a momento for me to recall back during difficult times, turning them into a source of hope and joy for my disturbed heart.

Thank you Vong and her family for the effort of sending me to and fro while coming back all the way from Penang just to have my birthday celebrated with a surprise attack. Thank you Siti for the love you have for this friendship we share. I'm most exhilarated to have you celebrating my birthday and the efforts that you have pour your heart out. My gratitude I bid to my ' egg tart' for having to plan this wonderful event with my friends. Lastly, to all those who are involved in this arrangement, please keep in mind that I'm extremely delightful with today's experience and never would I forget this unique day as long as it is displayed in this blog.

And here is how the birthday celebration was like and I hope that I can return the favour as well in times to come. Thank you and may God continue to bless you all.

My  Charming Cake

Fish and chips for Three

My Surprise Birthday Party 2013 

Hmmm....hmm...(scratching my head). The only problem now is how the heck am I to verticalize the photos since I took them horizontally.. Sorry about that......hehe..I gotta find some way to fix them up.   :)

Irregular Consistency - A Knack to Overcome

Wouldn't it be wonderful if we are able to maintain our mood to do beneficial and useful activities? Though I'm partially well myself but there are still so many rooms that need to be improved  in terms of my attitude and thinking. There are times I wonder why it is difficult to stimulate ourselves to do what's good for us, eg. studying, leisure reading, helping out with house chores, self relaxation and meditation. All of these are practical yet we are so DAMN lazy that we will only do these when necessary. 

Some say they do mental exercising by sleeping or some may even say ' I will do it later when I have the mood'. Honestly, with that kind of attitude, it is difficult for us to achieve the hopes and our dreams. Why must we be stress to carry them out at crucial times?Why not start making slight changes in defeating our lazy nature to ensure a comfortable living with the people around you and your life? Life would have changed gradually if only we take the initiative to do so.

To tell you the truth, it is difficult for me to maintain the consistency of blogging too because I sometimes feel unenergetic and somehow I am losing the urge to blog since I'm less depressed now. However, knowing that blogging can provide comfort and relief to people makes me gear up to write more. If I feel reluctant to blog, this reason is enough to push me to write more.

 Let me challenge you to do meditation or even a short prayer of dedication to God every morning and night before you sleep. You might think is pointless and wonder how it benefits you but  let me seriously convince you that it will to make your life more meaningful and enjoyable to live. A prayer of gratitude and exercise of positive thoughts everyday for 5 to 10 minutes at least would renew your thoughts and guide you to a higher quality of living.

With me challenging you here allows me to challenge myself . As a matter of fact, I will work hard to improve the areas I'm weak at so that all of us can benefit from it. From sharing and helping each other out, we will be able to feel up the missing gaps between us and make our ambitious dreams more possible to achieve. It is through team work that we all can perform to the best of our ability.

Secret Revealed

No wonder I couldn't recover and no wonder my illness gotten worse. I was the victim of my fear and doubts but what makes it worse is that I give in to myself willingly. I wish to be a friend of good influence and yet I have trouble handling myself. What's making me angrier and more shameful than ever now is that I have hurt their feelings and disappointed  my beloved ones due to my thoughtlessness and negligence toward reality.

Couple of months ago, I rested myself at home but I never did attempt to improve. I wanted the negatives in me and this is how my illness gotten worse. Laziness, submission to temptation, worthlessness, wanting easy way out were there  making me susceptible to their attacks. I received many counselling sections with my parents' earning income thinking that they might help me to cure my problem. However, I have come to my sense now that I will NEVER recover unless I have the will to do so.

Running away from reality seems to be the easiest road to take but the outcome won't be pleasing. Knowing that, I stubbornly did not want  to accept the truth and this is what has become of me....a failure and a worrier....If I'm not taking this time seriously for real, there wouldn't be any future no matter how much opportunities are there waiting for me..

I have taken things seriously but it isn't consistent. I wonder why and which part of me has already been loosen up....Gotta get a screw and tighten it.

THIS TIME I WILL GET SERIOUS AGAIN....I'm 20 now and I have wasted my golden time in the past two years. I'M NOT GOING TO BACK OFF now and I just want to clear myself from miseries. If I do happen to slip away by accident, please help me up so that I wouldn't go back to the wrong direction in life. I may be a bad influence to you now but I hope dearly that you will just be there to advise me whenever needed. I don't care if you wish to scold me as long as I realize what I have done to myself.

Above all things, let me make a serious commitment here that I am going to fight all that I have from now onward at this very second.....Now, the clock is ticking and here I am attempting to do what is right and justice in the eyes of the Lord and my family. In humble faith I pray, let me be strong and release me from evil.
Remember, Love and Compassion! These values are the ones that keeps us going and what I wrote before are useful as life lessons.

You too..u gotta work hard and be an inspiration for me to follow your lead as well. Not exactly everything but at  least we have several mutual life principles that we can follow.

My Pledge and Commitment to God and You

Till now, I have only mentioned that I suffer from depression but to be honest, there were times when I might not recover as my illness exacerbated. I've been diagnosed differently several times and I do have taken pills other than depression ones. I have not told you denser than this because I found that it wasn't the right time to tell you.

But, now as I have nearly recovered to the fullest, I would like to make several promises and commitments to God and you so that I would not go astray like how I used to. I was a whiner and a cry baby because all I ever knew was to study and what else? Now, I see lights from every side of me and that new vision and mission are there for me to fulfill them. The experience of psychological problem gave me new perspectives of how I perceive  the world before and after I recover. 

Back then when I was severely ill, life seems hopeless and difficult to move on. There are times when I wish I had not been born because the world's vibe seems insurmountable for me to handle. However, thanks to my supportive family, understanding counselors and great faithful friends, I can see the bright side of my recovery. I wish to at least to contribute what I know and experience so that I will be able to somewhat provide comfort and relieve to those who are suffering. 

I may be behind everyone else in terms of education status and social exposure but I will not be discouraged by my condition. Life is so much more when we can do anything only if you are willing. So, where does the will come from? For me, if it hadn't be for my family and friends and not forgetting God, where would I stand now? All these positive energy comes from our inner strength that can be developed as long we have passion for people and the world we live. Who cares how the world has turned out to be, for better or worse..? What's imperative is that you're still here to make tiny significant changes to your surroundings. Aren't I right? Take some time to think about it, and I'm sure we have a lot of opinions to say.

Though I have matured in certain ways, I am still timid in many aspects so there are more to be improved on. These will not happen within a few days but a life long journey of change. The world might not be pleasant realistically but never must we submit ourselves to the depth of the harsh reality.

Thus, I will continue to help and take good care of myself so that I can learn more about the world and what I can do for the people I love. Anyone out there reading this, let me tell you I deeply care for you and so does God. I would also want to see how I can make my life more meaningful from here onwards.....

A Short Lively Chat with You

Many things happen today but I found myself thoughtless as I am blogging.

Wait, arr...Give me a moment....

I did well for my short test this time and guess what, the lecturer who is currently teaching me Introduction to Healthcare gave me 3 Mentos sweets as reward. Just receiving the sweets from lecturer really touches me because I would never have thought that lecturers would be nice when I was only joking about the reward.

I came to love blogging now because I can feel the positive energy circulating in me while I am trying to recall the happy moments of my life. There were many problems I have to deal with but all ends well for now. So, if you do happen to have a little bit of time watching TV or wiggling your legs, why not try writing  good things that occur in everyday life. Listing down a few good memories down would actually help one to appreciate the time and everything that is in connection with him or her. Helping out a friend buying groceries or even having a light chat with lecturers can be some of the examples of good things in life. Though they are just morally decent deeds and short moments, but it is how these tiny treasures shape our life.

Let's switch other topics.....

One thing I realized is that I have difficulty in expressing myself more detail than usual because there seems to be nothing to write about at first. But as I am writing down the situation I'm facing, my mind tells me that I have a choice to write whatever seems interesting or important to me. Though I must say that life at home has turned into a little mess as I am having a hard time with my family. Dealing with family members becomes more insurmountable to take when you realize that it is hard to change someone. The only choice we have is to change ourselves so that we can be of a role model for them to follow.

About you, take the time to really enjoy yourself and indulge yourself in activities that allows your personal growth to expand. Spending some time reading unrelated topics to the one you are focusing now will help you to widen up your horizon as well as diverting your mind from the stress of having to deal with it everyday. With that, I'm sure you can carry out the task delightfully with your rambling emotions quiet down and still.....

I think that's all for now and I can't wait to tell you more about my journey whenever feasible...

A Utter Disgrace To God and My Loved Ones

It's shocking to have me blogging almost every single now and then. But I will assure you that after these days of several confessions to make, there will probably be brighter and more positive blogs you would read. However, if you ever feel the need to do have a break from reading my essays, then please do not hesitate to do so...I am glad that you are taking well of yourself so that you can continue to care those you love.

While I was having my nap, I had a problem adjusting myself to sleep comfortably. And....as I was trying to think what was going on in me, I suddenly felt a lot huge of guilt pilling up like stacks of textbooks arranged on a table.  I shouldn't have be stubborn in the first place. Due to my stubbornness and my rigidity to positive changes, I have lost many great opportunities that the Lord has in line for me. I could have continued my scholarship to become a great medical doctor or even enroll myself in a prestigious public university if I was ill then. See what has now become of me ....a student from Foundation in Medical Studies has now taken the path to Diploma in Physiotherapy...

I'm not looking down in Diploma or maybe I do but it is just the feeling of worthlessness  for not being able to use my abilities and the two years in depression to the fullest. I could have try my best to do what's necessary but I tend to do my own reasoning for my failures and neglecting my parents' advises. So, friends and those reading this....continue to love yourself and the time you have on this mother earth. Again, i would reiterate that it is a blessing to be here as many beautiful things will we experienced after going through hardships.

To you my Lord, I'm sorry for the serious rebellious thoughts and  horrendous sinful desires that I've craved during those period of time. There are times when I shouldn't have done what I should do....But it is too late for the rice has turned into porridge. Mum and dad....I love you and I'm sorry for my past misconducts and I would like to turn over a new leaf to be a daughter  pleasing to you. Friends and especially buddies....I thank you for you have never leave me upset whenever I am in dismay.....Having you guys listening to my worries and nagging about this and that really relieves me from misery and allow me to move forward at the very least. Without you, where would I be today?

By combining everything I've said from back then till now, I will want to live my third renewed life as a friend and a person worthy to be by your side. You can count on me and let us take the challenge of the world together.

Mission Accomplished.

I had a short test a couple of hours ago and to my delight, I believe I'm going to score well for this quiz. What's intriguing is that when you study days before the exam, the knowledge and facts that we revise tend to float away in an instance after revising. I was only able to revise one hour before the test starts as I was stressed out from not remembering much in my head.

Thank goodness I can perform my test myself because the test is suppose to be a trial for testing our understanding towards the subject. If I had not prepare for the occasion and had relied on my friends' answer( which I couldn't anyway) then, it would defeat its purpose of setting up the test in the first place, aren't I right?

Well, another exciting matter is that Christmas is just one month away from now and so I will be eagerly waiting for the celebration itself where there would be presents under the Christmas tree, decoration of X'mas ornaments and singing carols as well. Yeah... But never can we forget the true intention of celebrating Christmas as we are here to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, who has saved us through salvation and deliverance from the hold of the evil one.

Before that happens, there will be several quizzes around and I have to be sure that I can prove myself able to cope myself in my studies for the preparation of the next semester. Cheese!!!

An Odd Bewilderment

Sometimes, I find it strange that I would turn rebellious when I am recovering day by day, bit by bit from depression. I would find myself slacking off and wanting to escape work if I hadn't prepare my heart to do it. There are times when I would pretend to sleep whenever my mum walks into the room for I am not in a slightest interested of doing house chores....Hope mum never find out about this.

However, as I am writing this down, i feel the sense of my thoughts being able to flow more smoothly than how I used to face during periods of anxiety and depressive mode. At least now, I am able to rationalize properly and not react impulsively on my emotions and bad experiences of the past. So, I am in fact thankful to be able to stay alive knowing that I would be able to be a proper human being helping out those who are in trouble and having fun interacting in social activities.

I came to realize that study isn't about everything but it is just one of the better alternatives that offer greater opportunity and outcomes. Even if I am unable to study, I am still able to move on getting myself a job and achieve many years of working experiences. What matters the most isn't about your intelligence but it is more to the attitude we have towards the things we do and feel daily. As long as we know what important aspects we are prioritizing, then it makes it a lot easier to have our life going and goals achieved.

Tomorrow, I'll be having a small test on the Introduction to Healthcare and for that it does matter to me in a way because I'm not confident with my dedication, seriousness as well as my memory capacity to score well in my quiz. To cool myself down, I think I juz go and take a good NICE....nap of 1 to 2 hrs, I suppose. Hehe><

Did you see the change in my mood...Really am grateful that I am able to feel and joke around more naturally as I have much of my inner conflicts resolved. There's still a lot more but I think I can rest assured that everything will be just fine as long I put my trust in the Lord and continue to love and cherish myself. With that, I am more determined now to dispose myself from negative behaviours such as laziness, lack of self-esteem and unnecessary worries.  

Yes, I'm off to take a nap now so I'll chat more whenever I have the time and the desire to tell you about how I have been doing. 

Ps. I found it fascinating that I am able to talk more with me blogging than having to reserve the topics for the next time we meet. Probably because I couldn't remember them anyway and also I realized that the time we spent together is short.....So, got to use time wisely...

A transformation from My Old Self To A New Me

To be here today has been a blessing itself for I can live my life more cheerfully than I used to. I'm sure those who experience the same thing would comprehend how it feels like to be released from a sensation of a dungeon. When you're in depression, the only feelings that you sense are insecurity, lack of motivation to move on, and the negative outlook of situation. There is more to it than just that, but I would not elaborate further unless you are keen to know more...

With friends and family by my side, I feel that there's really something special in our relationship. The experience of  meeting you for the first time and being friends for so long is not just a mere coincidence but a precious connection that we have that forms how we live till now. With my family at my side, I am honored to have survived the hard journey and made it to the moment where I know i can contribute more than I possibly have imagined. 

To you my uncle, I thank you for the support that you provide through this time, There were disagreeable  moments but I am grateful for the continuous effort and love you have shown to me and my family. Thanks for the time we spent together every year end on Christmas because that is the time when we spend our special moments together. As such, I will hold deeply in my memories so that I can think upon the good times whenever I'm upset.

For now, I realize the importance of now and the time that we have as we live at the moment, let us cherish the time that we have with beneficial and useful activities so that the life of us and the people around can be made better. To accentuate the positive and diminish the negative is our main goal in life. Therefore, to live my life and made up for all the troubles and hassles I've caused during these times, allow me to change from within into someone who can be relied on. I come to an understanding now that worldly things cannot satisfies our soul but it is those free things that we normally take for granted; eg. air, water, friendship, abilities, knowledge, resources, experiences, God's love and passion towards the world. All of these makes a person a whole and be delivered from evil influences. 

With this much life lessons  that I have thought of is not a just a thing that happens within a day or two nor even weeks. It is how i perceived and gained after 2 years of depression. Not easy but worth to be alive.

At this time, I would like to make good changes from how I used to live. With being silent and quiet during hard times, I would prefer to express my difficulties and gain what I can learn from people. This is how we survive through tough times  and this is how we live till today.

Right here, right now...I've decided to stop myself from watching anime and manga because I found out that watching life experiences would teach us more on how to deal with current life issues. It is undeniably true that anime and manga can be a source of relief and laughter but they do not hold the absolute solution to our daily struggles. What we need to do is to learn how to live a  quality way of life and this can only be achieved through real life experiences  and the support we gain from our surroundings. 

As such, I would remind myself to be more realistic regarding the world we inhabit  and be a lot more passionate to the people around me for this is how our life suppose to be. With my final saying on this, hope you will have a good rest and may you have a life more meaningful after reading this...

                              

The Happiest Time Of Now

I would gladly say that I have recovered 80% from depression. It's been a while since I felt this happy after long years of suffering from depression and obsessive thoughts. Of course, this doesn't mean I don't have it anymore but it is just more of a saying that I have the will to live my life for the better. There are good times and so does the other....but at least I can say this much to myself that I can live my life normally now.

Guess what, I'm really glad that I chose this college. Not only is it near my home, but it is actually a starting line for me to get up from square one. And even, if I were to get ill again in the future, I can relax that I am close to my family to look after me. My experience studying in Foundation in Medical Studies wasn't pleasant but I hold it to myself as something valuable....as it has taught me the value of family and the life challenges that we need to overcome.

After 3 long years of depression, have I now become someone who is aspired to help the people around suffering the same situation as me. One thing I noticed that people who are mentally ill tend to suffer a lot more and had it rough going through the day. So, to those who actually recover( I won't say completely because there is no such thing as 100%), thumbs up for you have made this far. Let this experience teach you and instill the feelings of compassion towards others and also awareness to the problems faced by society daily.

To you my friend, life isn't easy and I must say that I have a long way to go...But, like what you say as well, life can be beautiful as well. Each day has been a blessing thinking that I may be able to spend enjoyable time with you once you are back. At times, I would also imagine us having fun doing the things we love....eg, window shopping, badminton playing, barbecue-ing, and eating out together...Just imagine all the fun we could have together. 

So, I'm glad that I will be able to spend my Birthday soon with a peaceful and happy mind. Being ill for a while and not having to enjoy my time fully really gets me into thinking how it would turn out this year end with my birthday and christmas day going on.... Can't wait for it, hehe....   ><

The Dark Silhouette Behind Me

Here I am today to declare the unforgivable sins that I've committed in the past till now. My sins may be relatively small because it doesn't involve anyone getting hurt or the illegal things that I shouldn't have engaged in but somehow, the wrongdoings are still part of my misbehavior that I've portrayed.

There are times when I've lost my sense of purpose in life as I wondered in mind whether God is there with me or not. You may think that it is not much of concern to think about it but I myself have carried it within my soul till I'm nearly drop dead. I believe in God if I'm well and if I don't, then I don't believe....SO what's  the point in believing in the first place as long as it satisfies your need? 

Several times I have given up and gone astray as I start to see life pointless to me. I've tried my best to improve but then I would give up easily after a few days of hard work restraining myself from misbehaving. It seems to me that at times living your life recklessly like watching anime or manga 24/7 is enjoyable. And this is where I got addicted. With the bad thoughts in me as well as the temptations that I've have to handle with, I might as well commit them so that it will go away and my fleshly desire be fulfilled. Nevertheless, I would be extremely regretful and deep in thoughts as I began to struggle with my conscience telling me that it isn't right to be doing them.

Also, there are times when I'm reluctant to help my mum and dad out. Whenever they asked for my help, I can feel the raging hormone within me as I grew impatience with my lifestyle and how I wanted everything to go my way forever. I wanted to do things that I enjoy without them interfering. When I have a nap of 2 hours or so, I tend to wake up way after the time limit. I would be slouching on my bed wanting to continuing sleeping at the same time, the other half of me telling not to do it. However, I must admit that there has plenty of times that I sleep way too much on purpose.

Due to the fact that I can't deal with my emotions, I tend to get mixed up and tangled along with them. I may have committed the mistakes several times or more but why have I never learn a lesson from them? Why am I still here suffering needlessly when I should have grab hold and say sternly to myself that THIS IS ENOUGH.... Don't go there or else you know what will happen.....

So, here it is.....I'm a special girl that has been gifted with talents the very first day I was born onto this earth. You are who God has loved. Lay upon his shoulder and pass the burden to him and he will give you rest

Friends are there and many more beautiful things on earth waiting for me....so Stay Strong, my child..

This is what I would visualize from what God or a comforter would tell me.

Harder and harder Our Life Shall Be

Again, I'm here today to write the matter concerning our future in years to come. As we see from daily news and statistics shown online, we can be sure that our life would no longer be the same as it used to be. The competition among the people in employments, studies, businesses, and other life-related areas are getting tougher and intense out there. People's lifestyle changes in respect to the trend of clothes, music, entertainment and culture. So, knowing that changes occur continuously wherever we are and whichever period we are in, there can be no guarantee of how our life shall be.

If that's the case, why on earth would we need to compete with one another? Yes, each of us would need to strive hard for the strong and outstanding ones will win the race. But do you realize how we have lived our life if we all aim to be better than one another? Wouldn't it be a better choice for us to enjoy whatever provisions we are provided with and use whatever resources we have to the best of our ability. Also, wouldn't it be wise to study for the sake of wanting to learn than viewing education as a way to richness?

With people racing among themselves, there would be a cycle of negative feelings such as jealousy, pride, arrogance, overly materialistic and etc, wouldn't they? Then, why bother to make life miserable when we can actually do lots of good deeds with the knowledge we have gained through life experiences for the betterment of the society. The number of students studying in professional courses have increased drastically that the job demands and opportunities available are insufficient to cater for the increasing number of graduates. Doctors, nurses, pharmacist, accountants, businessmen, engineers, musicians and other occupations have now exceeded the standard demand as the population of students graduating from all different kinds of high institutions have now slowly reach its' threshold.. 

In regards to this, let me advise you that we should just be grateful with whatever status and condition we are in and it is of our responsibility to shape our life accordingly to what is pleasing and right. Let us cherish the opportunity of receiving a tertiary education and the life that we live with friends, pals, buddies and families to the fullest. Every minute counts as we are together with the ones we care and love. 

Everything has a beginning and so does the ending itself. Similarly, it applies to the fact that there will be times of overwhelming hardships and times of peaceful development. What's critical is that we must learn how to react appropriately to the situation and use them to our advantage. Everything we do and feel all requires a level of moderation; no more or no less. And thus, this would need some period of training to maintain at a balanced level.

I've failed miserably in my adjustment attempts and thus, I'm not mentally strong myself. Realizing my condition allows me to make a rational choice of how I want my life to be. For me to actually compete in the midst of the fast-pacing world is insurmountable for me to handle at the current situation. When I have the guts to live my life fearlessly, I would really love to contribute my energy and my talents I possessed for the benefits of mankind and the mother nature that we live in.