Tentative Feelings

I may look bright and cheerful on the outside, but in my heart, lie the feelings of emotional pain, sensitivity and timidity. You must be tired hearing this over and over again but why can't I learn my lesson...I feel like I'm the most rebellious and idiotic among many others.

Let me be renewed and forgive my past sins...I'm sorry for misusing my time and the healthy mind and body that you have blessed me with. Allow me to make changes to myself and I hope I will be a great follower of your kingdom.

To those reading my blog, I'm sorry if I have deceived you. I told you I would change for the better but since to me that I have not made any...It's difficult when I have to give up the fun and the things I wish to do. However, I would still prefer the peace and healthy living of my life instead of fulfilling my worldly desire.

There're plenty of things I wish to do....Read the gospel of God and immersed myself in the beauty of the world God has created. I would to also establish myself securely as a bright and outstanding student of my college. Whatever I did in the past, let me go quietly and I hope I can replace and compensate with the efforts of the presence. 

Making a scrap book, playing piano, learning Mandarin and Korean ( my priority is still English though), working a part time job and acquiring world knowledge; health, sciences, IT, environment, business, arts, humanity and many more that connects everything to the universe. I'm still here so I hope I would be set free from my suffering and I hope that I would be given another chance to pursue my dream. Please strengthen me so that I will not take my life for granted.

BE POSITIVE!!! I CAN DO IT!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!   :)