It's shocking to have me blogging almost every single now and then. But I will assure you that after these days of several confessions to make, there will probably be brighter and more positive blogs you would read. However, if you ever feel the need to do have a break from reading my essays, then please do not hesitate to do so...I am glad that you are taking well of yourself so that you can continue to care those you love.
While I was having my nap, I had a problem adjusting myself to sleep comfortably. And....as I was trying to think what was going on in me, I suddenly felt a lot huge of guilt pilling up like stacks of textbooks arranged on a table. I shouldn't have be stubborn in the first place. Due to my stubbornness and my rigidity to positive changes, I have lost many great opportunities that the Lord has in line for me. I could have continued my scholarship to become a great medical doctor or even enroll myself in a prestigious public university if I was ill then. See what has now become of me ....a student from Foundation in Medical Studies has now taken the path to Diploma in Physiotherapy...
I'm not looking down in Diploma or maybe I do but it is just the feeling of worthlessness for not being able to use my abilities and the two years in depression to the fullest. I could have try my best to do what's necessary but I tend to do my own reasoning for my failures and neglecting my parents' advises. So, friends and those reading this....continue to love yourself and the time you have on this mother earth. Again, i would reiterate that it is a blessing to be here as many beautiful things will we experienced after going through hardships.
To you my Lord, I'm sorry for the serious rebellious thoughts and horrendous sinful desires that I've craved during those period of time. There are times when I shouldn't have done what I should do....But it is too late for the rice has turned into porridge. Mum and dad....I love you and I'm sorry for my past misconducts and I would like to turn over a new leaf to be a daughter pleasing to you. Friends and especially buddies....I thank you for you have never leave me upset whenever I am in dismay.....Having you guys listening to my worries and nagging about this and that really relieves me from misery and allow me to move forward at the very least. Without you, where would I be today?
By combining everything I've said from back then till now, I will want to live my third renewed life as a friend and a person worthy to be by your side. You can count on me and let us take the challenge of the world together.
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