My Roaming Thoughts

As tomorrow would be another first day of the week to have class, I buckled myself up to do some self revision for my first subject of this mini-sem''Introduction to Healthcare''. (Feels more like Introduction to Physiotherapy'' to me.....

Never would I know how difficult it is to do self-studying after one long year of rest. While I was reading through my notes, I find it hard to maintain my concentration and to read the words across smoothly. My mind tend to wander off and think of my life issues. However, it isn't like as if I hadn't read lines or sentences before but probably because this is the subject in which I needed to pay attention with. Honestly speaking, I am grateful enough that I manage to read through Unit 1&2 as well as reading external resources for additional references.

Now, it's already 10.25pm so I just want to gathered my thoughts into this small diary of mine. To be honest, I am worried whether I can make this through with my studies and my endless thoughts. Yesterday, I was for certain that I had nearly reached to the maximum potential stage of recovery but by the time the morning arrived, the problems were still swirling in my head unfiltered. 

I'm just glad that everything is ok for now eventhough things didn't turn out what I wanted. But if they did, I wouldn't be happy anyway. I am going to have Eng class tomorrow and I looked forward for my lecturer to give us assignments on language learning exercises. Who would have thought that I would be anticipating for homework to do? If my assignment workload were to increase next year, I would be in a lot of trouble dealing with the time schedules and studies organised.

Just to let you know, my class consists only of 4 students inclusive of me so it is indeed a very small group. But, wait till next year when there will be a big intake for students coming in for the first sem. By then, I would be entering my first sem as well.

Before I take my leave, I just want to apologize to u, Lord for my stubbornness and excessive worrying of my troubles. There are at times where I would be route less whether God exists or not....The same issue over and over again.----------------   :(

So now, let me come to a close that though today has been tough but at least it is coming to an end and the new beginning will be there waiting for me to encounter tomorrow.....