It's been a pleasant yet tough day for me today....When I was in college this morning, I was still in the fierce battle with my thoughts. Worrisome thoughts were right there waiting eagerly to pounce on me any moment but at the same time, I felt a huge relief when I noticed that I was able to deal with it with good and positive mindset. It's been a while since I felt such relief as I've been trying hard to overcome my weaknesses.
I've discovered a lot of great potentials and abilities to be uncovered and polished up when I was having my classes on Introduction to Healthcare. Though I couldn't grasp what my lecturer was teaching as my mind wandered off to the word printings of the handouts, I was at least aware of the topic we are focusing on back then.
It's a blessing to have a college near my home where I can always walk to and from the college without having to concern about the availability of transportation. Aside from that, I can even help out my mum and dad with house chores on a daily basis. However, there were times when I thought if only I could return back to study medicine again. I feel that there is a lot more to it than me just studying diploma in Physiotherapy as I feel insecure regarding the job opportunities of a physiotherapy in store for me in the future.
But then, when I think again rationally...it was indeed a right decision not able to pursue my dream in medicine for I was not up to it at that time. I've fallen into depression twice and so, it was the only choice I have to ensure speedy recovery. Besides, I have come to understanding that a person well-being need not necessarily be depended on the high-paid careers but it is towards the fun and enjoyment we received from doing what we love.
Therefore, I am extremely grateful to my parents for they have never failed to shower me much parental love similar to the love that I felt from my heavenly Father. At times, when I committed several unforgivable mistakes, I'm at ease knowing that God still loves me just as much as my parents do and never will he forsake me when I'm alone. My gratitude I would like to bid to my parents for they have always tolerated my crybaby personality and giving me a life of purposeful meaning whenever I'm down.
To my uncle in England, I thank you for the financial backup you have provided me with. Because if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be near where I am now studying in a health-allied college for a try out. It has been a wonderful experience for me to be with friends and still able to study despite my condition. With all my heart, I promise that I will achieve my goals in life and appear as a successful person in the future.
Not forgetting my friends who's actually been there for me to listen and hang out with me whenever I felt sad. I appreciate the friendship we have developed together and never will I lose nor forget this relationship we share together.
I still have several inner conflicts and fear to deal with but I must say that today has been comparatively better than yesterday or the day before yesterday. So, I hope it would be another pleasant one tomorrow and also the days to come for I eagerly want to celebrate with friends and relatives returning home for X'mas.
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